My family is very ignorant when it comes to dealing with my Autism. Family gatherings (which happen quite frequently) are super uncomfortable for me and nobody seems to get why, despite me explaining it over and over again. My older brother won’t even acknowledge me having Asperger’s, he just thinks I’m “being weird” on purpose.
I keep telling myself it’s useless, they refuse to understand.
… then I keep trying … T_T … in vain (15+ years of trying)… but then I try again. I just want to feel understood. I long for the family connection they’ve told me is so important my whole life .
I have bent my words over backwards and reworded them in every way possible. I’ve used articles, videos, and infographics. I have made dozens of analogies and comparisons to their own lives. I have handed them literal scripts of things they could say. I’ve ve tried everything I’ve heard of so far to try and get my family to understand me. It very much feels like I am solidly in a box to them because I see them be understanding to others, to their own family, but never receive the same compassion.
I resonate with this quote:
“Once everyone sees you as a villain, that’s what you are. They only see you one way, no matter how hard you try.”- Nimona
I kinda just stopped trying, now I’m just doing whatever I can to get out of those situations. I don’t really care what they think about that any more.
I’ve tried to make things right for everyone around me all my life, it’s time I finally look after myself more.
My family is very ignorant when it comes to dealing with my Autism. Family gatherings (which happen quite frequently) are super uncomfortable for me and nobody seems to get why, despite me explaining it over and over again. My older brother won’t even acknowledge me having Asperger’s, he just thinks I’m “being weird” on purpose.
I keep telling myself it’s useless, they refuse to understand.
… then I keep trying … T_T … in vain (15+ years of trying)… but then I try again. I just want to feel understood. I long for the family connection they’ve told me is so important my whole life .
I have bent my words over backwards and reworded them in every way possible. I’ve used articles, videos, and infographics. I have made dozens of analogies and comparisons to their own lives. I have handed them literal scripts of things they could say. I’ve ve tried everything I’ve heard of so far to try and get my family to understand me. It very much feels like I am solidly in a box to them because I see them be understanding to others, to their own family, but never receive the same compassion.
I resonate with this quote:
“Once everyone sees you as a villain, that’s what you are. They only see you one way, no matter how hard you try.”- Nimona
I kinda just stopped trying, now I’m just doing whatever I can to get out of those situations. I don’t really care what they think about that any more.
I’ve tried to make things right for everyone around me all my life, it’s time I finally look after myself more.
Yeah, same. I’ve accepted I just don’t have a family 😪
Now it’s all me… mostly. I’m working on it 😌