Nicotine, and I really think I’ve totally kicked it this time.

I made the mistake the first time I quit of thinking that cigars and pipes wouldn’t be addictive because there’s no inhaling. Yeah, I was a moron.

But I know that it’s a zero use thing now, and while I miss the ritual of smoking, neither tobacco or more modern nicotine delivery tempt me at all.

I’m sure as hell not paying for some herbal cigarette crap, because those were never worth a damn to begin with. And I can’t smoke weed because it fucks with me. So, I won’t be dragged back to it that way, even if I wanted to find alternative rituals to do.

It also helps that I can’t handle the smell of cigarettes now. It hits my nose, and I’m sneezing for an hour.

I quit right as covid was hitting the news, and after six months, I didn’t even have the urge to engage in the ritual after meals or sex.

Also, no smoking = better sex. Kinda difficult to do it right when you can’t breathe right and get winded fast.